Problems of mimicking

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Do I need to state on my bio that I’m autistic? I don’t usually name off my neurotype and mental disorders on my profile, but I feel like stating I’m autistic might be necessary at this point because a lot of people keep taking me the wrong way. I’m thinking maybe I should state that I’m autistic in my bio so that people will know why I might be coming off a certain way and that I’m not being rude I’m literally just talking to you and trying to connect. EDIT: I have decided to keep my bio as is. If someone needs to know, I’ll tell them. I don’t want to be treated differently right off the bat because of stereotypes and whatnot.

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I finally took the time and did self care today despite how down I am. I've even done my makeup to be dressed for the play I'm about to go see that my brother is in. It took a lot to do this but I'm glad I did

Anyone else?

I don’t know how to be happy anymore. Even my psychiatrist has given up on me and that’s the third one in the last few years. I try not to give up, but it’s getting hard.

Had a terrible start to my long weekend with triggers to my PTSD. It led to a spiral downwards to a dark place. My question is; How do you deal with past trauma creeping up and taking over you? I use music, both creating and listening, but when it gets severe I just listen. I hope everyone is doing okay. ❤️‍🩹

Is there anyone else on here who is autistic and has had trouble connecting with people? Do we think it's best to search out other autistics to date or just wait and find that person who accepts and connects with you?

I mean, generally, we've all got something going on to be anxious about. Work, school, home, finances, romance, friendships, etc. They don't have to be super serious either. Sometimes just getting it out there will help. 🫶🏼

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I release you. I forgive you. I accept you. I love you.

Speaking from experience, I know just how dark it can get in the unknown universe of our own minds. Being sucked into a blackhole of uncertainty, self-doubt, and the unexplainable. A place where you sit alone, even when you’re surrounded by those you love and care for. Often times, it’s difficult to see and focus when the battle you’re fighting requires all of your energy, some may think you don’t care, but you do care, more than they realize. This dark place that often greets you when you least expect, it does not control you, and it certainly doesn’t define you, it only tries to consume you, don’t let it. I know, it’s easier said than done, but trust me I know, and sadly all too well. I know that dark place, the place where only you exist all the while not wanting to. The place where everything hurts and weakness thrives. The place where thoughts wonder aimlessly, thoughts not truly yours. The place that crushes your hopes and dreams. The place that crushes you… Whenever you find yourself in this ever so dark place, show it your hope, show it your dreams, show it your self-worth, and let it be YOU who consumes it. You’re a fighter, you’re strong, and you ARE worth it, always.

Everyday it gets harder to shake that exhaustion on the inside😅

Watching the world change is something else. All you knew in School have moved on, passed on, your ex becoming a Mother of two. And I'm still here like its 2006, still waiting, no longer for someone, but something.

When you want to be something you're not, that only means you haven't yet discovered the best of yourself.

I'm spending 5 days back in PA with family and right now the hardest thing is that I can't vent the frustration/depression parts of my mood cycle by blasting loud music and drinking heavily

I'm learning more about myself with each passing day. It's been 4 months and I'm just now becoming stable at 22. Hope yall are doing well.