Observer

(INFJ only) Do you feel like an observer in this realm? Like you don't belong here?

I've always felt like everyone else has a sixth sense that I'm lacking. Something as profound as being deaf; everyone assumes I "get it", because everyone "gets it". I don't. I don't pick up what you're putting down.

ISTP perhaps can't relate.

I use to feel this way a lot as a child and into my teens. I thought I was different or that something was wrong with me. In recent years I've come learned that there's word for it, depersonalization and a similar feeling, derealization. This is usually caused by trauma or depression. I used to be depressed a lot as a child due to family problems and not being able to fit in with the rest of my classmates in school.

Yeah or maybe because you are an infj.

Yeah that might might be it too.

Once again. Are you living or just existing lol

Both☠️

I fly on auto pilot a lot too lol

I've always felt like I'm just existing. I literally have no reason to be here and for all you positive people out there who say that "I have a purpose." Ever thought about your purpose just being born to die at an exact moment just so someone else could live... Or for even something smaller than that?

Yes!

All the time, sometimes I have to ask myself "what am I even doing?" when I think too much about it...

Indeed, hipe one day you figure out the answer to your question.

You as well, thanks.

Every single day

I certainly do. Kind of like that Eleanor girl who in the Starmites musical is a comic book fan that happens to like the sci-fi characters who are mostly attractive men trying to protect there "inner-verse" or whatever their universe is called

Yes you are right

This is me... it's a lonely existence

Yes, everyday.

No I believe our life is what we make it according to the opportunities that present themselves in our lives. Some paths are dead ends, some people still try to stay in that dead end space or just live there. People have their own choices and need to make the choices that prosper themselves, I think a lot of people don’t seize better opportunities when they are presented even though it’s growth and they should be reaching for that opportunity.

Oh heck no, this thing is a rotten onion but I'll take it. It's a peach and an apple at times as well. Don't belong here, the whole thing came coded with written instructions, colors, smells, sounds...it's almost too easy aside from the headaches between prayer.

I don't even feel the same species as everyone. I'm just this subhuman thing here existing in the dark.

Quite often, I have. It has been a work in progress since childhood to relate to others.

Is that bad?